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.Saturday, February 5, 2011 ' 9:30 PM Y

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a contract of 6 years..
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im a regular.. i dun upsize to large.. 6 year isnt a long period.. its a darn fucking long period of 6 years.. i have to kill myself from mon to fri in camp.. wkend then i get to fuck my own bed.. after my aunt talked to me.. she told me army life isnt the best when the econ is rising.. pay are higher.. job are better.. she asked me to focus on my degree cert.. a diploma cert will suffer.. maybe not now.. but im sure in future..
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a degree guy and a dip guy with both same effort in job.. if u r boss.. u promote degree guy and not dip guy.. that fact and its so realistic..
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if i ever sign on.. i will be out on 28yr old.. if i manage to get a degree cert.. its will be so useful.. if i didn able to get a cert during my ns.. i will be wasting more of my life .. my life to get pt time study while working..
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if i dun get to sign on.. i will be out on 24.. and i will get my cert on 27.. but i cant afford myself a degree cert..
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its both win win lose lose situation.. i will able to get a better income if i sign on now.. but my life getting restricted.. i will able to focus on my study properly but im a poor guy.. what to do.. do to what? i need to tink.. i need a clear vision..

.Thursday, January 13, 2011 ' 10:58 PM Y

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i know u will happen to be here..

i gt a lot to say too.. but i just wan tell u.. move on.. dun hold the memories.. its pointless.. just move on ba.. i will not contact u.. i will nv able to see what happening in ur life.. i wish i can see but its not the right way to do it..

bye jing..

.Sunday, December 5, 2010 ' 4:21 PM Y

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im just back from outfield.. its was a hell experience but i manage to overcome it.. my field camp was at mon to thur.. mon we got our road march all the way.. its was abt 9km long with 10+ kg of bag, water and sar21.. heavy loaded.. we manage to march dere and we started to build barsha tent.. was easy task.. but when rain come abt, the soil soften and the tension of the tent falls.. we got our training there.. the mud was disgusting.. dirty.. fuckup.. but we have no choice but to sit stand lay on it.. 2nd day we digged shell scrape and the night slp on it.. the shell scrape was fun.. fouth day we learn our combat drills and we had our mission into forest and train with blanks.. its was fun but the clothes were dirty and stink like rotten fish.. smell it and i swear you vomit.. haha.. after camping we went back bathe n rest and we went to urban training for 2 days.. cocked up but i duno y i passed. HAHA..

i hate cleaninig sar 21..

.Friday, November 5, 2010 ' 10:50 PM Y

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superstar.. HAHA.. i just went hair tattoooo on fri.. 6 days before my NS.. haha.. it cost me 40 dollar to cut this ultra cool hair.. i love it a lot..

baby~

i like it a lot.. haha..

recently i fall in love with bollywood movie.. unltra cool movie.. their story line is so much better then any movie.. chinese or english movie.. every words and action they did, they have related and deep meaning..

counting down.. 5.5 days..

.Thursday, November 4, 2010 ' 8:53 AM Y

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its been awhile since i last posted..

i just broked up with my gf..

i only can say im sorry to you.. partly im not rdy.. i didn meant to hurt you but i cannt dun hurt you this time.. the very last time i swear.. i just hope u will be out of it soon..

i alway remember how i know you and how we first meet.. its wonderful.. after exchange number at facebook, we started to msg each other.. tried asked you down to meet me but first few times u didn wan to come.. maybe your r shy.. but you did come blk 8 and i saw you.. a tall girl.. and pretty.. with a lot of holy words.. such a cute holy girl..

after the first meet, we meet up afew times.. i rmb how cute i slp.. slping while grabbing my elmo.. love my bed near the wall.. you said its coooling.. and i find your answer dumb.. i just need a aircon for you.. and we can have our lovely slp at cold room..

i rmb first time i go amk, to fetch you from grandma hse.. first time you hugged me in mrt.. its was weird hugging in mrt, im okie if you like it.. i like to hug u a lot.. just tat im alway eating your sexy hair .. one day all ur hair gone because i ate it.. haha.. the first time i went to find you at ur grandma hse.. i only can rmb the nice food and she said ke jia ren v stingy.. its not the money im stingy.. its my heart stingy.. my tolerence in my heart is little.. small incident i can be guai lan for long..

this led us to unhappiness..

i cant give u the ben you first meet.. first impression is unreal.. as time goes by.. u realise that im hurting you alway.. i have been wasting my life for cold war.. if i can spend these time wisely, life will be in a better situation for you and me..

i dun deny i still love u.. i dun deny i still hurt u if we continue.. so let the past be memories.. work towards your future..

i will alway be beside you...indirectly..